Dead End

Well it all comes down to this hour 11:38pm 5/19/2010. My back is now against the wall and I have nowhere left to go, I cry in thoughts of what's next? where can I go? I don't feel safe as in a shelter being that I am openly gay man and since they don't really screen who comes in  for emergency housing and anything can happen to me and my stuff that I really wouldn't be able to sleep in peace and really is it not  everyone's right to at lease have that? Well I really don't know anymore so can I get some help please? Can I have stabilty and peace? Can I live? Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavement even if the lead no where? Would it be a be a waste because I know my place?  Should I leave this earth?