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Sunday, July 29, 2012

WHAT YOU SEE


It's one of the greatest cliches " what you see is what you get" if only that were true. Due to vast world of endless possibilities we call life everything is in a constant state of change even death is a change from one state to the next. Nothing and I mean nothing is suppose to stay the same, growth is the only way to proceed. I want to grow and stop this train.What do I mean? I am at a point that I feel stuck and if I don't have a total break away I might as well not live anymore. The road I've been on paved  like the map of my D.N.A  has me heartbroken all the time, limited in my funds, just getting through the day. I spent so much time living in survival mode I just want to be able to just have one thing go right and not worry, I don't want to feel ugly and shy, I want to feel like this on the inside and fake it on the outside so what you see is not always what you get be sure to check the side affects.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

The Check List

This is just my opinion but don't we have enough to deal with in life? Then why is there a need to classify people or yourself for that matter? Yes I  know we all have a type and that we are very unique people with limitless qualities but I  feel that the members of the LGBT community are among some of the worst "label whores" in the world it's like what society  thinks of us is not enough we have to put ourselves down as well. I too have taken part in this until I realize what it was doing to my self-esteem as a person I knew my attributes very well but I felt so trapped in that view point by not only myself but by others as well, it took me to be fed up with all the are you this or are you that to really look at my life. I think the only box you should ever be in is the one you are buried in if that is what you choose. Life is a place where there should be no wall  no person, place or thing should be in your way. The only title I do want in my life is to be called Dr.Charles L. Yarbrough .

Monday, July 9, 2012

Mr Nice Guy



I hope that now I have a CLEAR 4g mobile internet stick I can do this more. I have come to a point where I feel that if I'm not in my own way why should anything else be? There is so much I want to say and I am worried about my Dysgraphia keepng people from relating to me because my spelling and grammar is below where you think a 28 year old should be but the funny thing is if you talked to me you would never know I had this learning disability. I am going to push through in hopes that this let's someone like me know that nothing is impossible unless you let it be and I am so tired of being down and depressed about being homeless, being H.I.V positive, being single, being overweight in my eyes at lease,having people tell me I have gained weight and the rest of the negative things I hear or say. Today I want to keep on this journey of accepting what is and fixing what I can so if you expect me to be Mr. nice guy then be nice to me or get out of my way and out my live.

The Divo has spoken